Money, money, money

Money alone doesn't make you happy. But it sure helps!

This page is more like personal brainstorming so if you'd rather read something a little more general just skip ahead to --> super heroes and the like.

For about two years I lived in shared houses and therefore had hardly any monthly expenses. That gave me a very nice life style! I bought one or two video box sets a month and had pizza or curry delivered about three times a week. My account never went below 0 and even though I lived quite a bit away from my friends and only saw them every couple of weeks I was more or less happy. I felt free and spent my time on my own creating SG.com. Then the previously mentioned events happened and now I live in my house and have most of my money going out for bills. I have bought maybe two DVDs and CDs this year (ok, I went on a desperate shopping spree last week and bought 8 DVDs at £6 each!). I have not bought a single video/DVD box set in the last 18 months. Sure there are things of more importance but the fact that I can not afford them makes me unhappy. Depressed at times.

Surely if I want more money I just need to get a better job! I even could! I know there are jobs out there that would earn me more money. They would of course also be boring office jobs that I'd probably like a lot less than my current job!

I could throw everything away and go back to uni or college. Give up my house, my social life and study for a better career and work at the same time to pay the bills. It is not what I want, though I am honestly having a hard time putting the thought of it aside. My dream after all is acting but I guess I will try it through local theaters first before throwing everything I have right now away. (I have changed my mind since I wrote this and I am currently applying to Drama schools. Feb04)

How about just putting a lot of effort into my current job and moving up within the company. Become a manager! That means more money! That would be great, wouldn't it? Not for me, thanks. I want to put my energy into my life, my hobbies. I don't want a job that comes with more responsibility and makes me work overtime. I don't want to be one of those people with work mobile phone - always available in case something goes wrong. In a way I want a life that is just not possible in today's world unless you are lucky or a genius. I want it all and I want it now. And that's what makes me write these lines.

My thoughts keep circling around this one question: Is there any way at all that I could make my life less ordinary?

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